if i could unwind time long ago , i would tell myself not to touch that stick which cause me what i am today , thankfully i have stop doing it before it gets addicted .
i have disappointed my brother because i kept on telling him that i wont smoke till i am at the legal age of 18 , but because i kept on touching those things at home , seeing people around me smoking , why would i not get influence ? i tell myself , wanie , stop doing this foolish act before it takes over you . i have stop doing it . i will no longer touch that stick , belief me .
i have done lots of stupid things in the past , stealing , cheating , etc . i always being the 'bad one' in the family , do you know how hurt i am to be labeled as that ? it hurts alright . mom even had to help me settle the police case which only me & my mom knows . and im thankful for her cause she helped me kept a secrets from people around me .
i want to be clean and not be other people who smoke , steal , cheating , drinking all that because that is a sin , to people like me .
i hoped that if my closest ones read this , i hoped you guys understand me well , i stop it and will never do it again . i promised . cross my heart :)
